i dont know how to start or where to start..for what i have notice, i made someone's feeling bad about me...sume tu start dr mulut ni jgak..gatal2 nk story2 ngn lect alih2 bdn jd mangse...tp aku mmg rase bersalah sgt dgn die, sbb aku ego untuk mengenali diri die dgn mendalam becoz again aku tau aku x mampu tandingi die dlm segala segi...she's perfect n trying to be...she's excellent...yet pretty. all lect wud luv her for the way she talks the way she share sumtin with the lects...i cud not get over her even tho i try so hard but unfortunately it ended up I'm feeling guilty..for the past six months i have gone through with her, i made myself to be limit with her, aku taw aku x setanding dgn die...aku tipu diri aku dgn mengatakan aku tidak mahu mengenali die dgn lebih mendalam. i just called her my friend not more than that. usually the people i put this title to them, i will not give a damn bout what happened to them or how r they doing.
and starting with the lect tell me the bad story bout her (she had a problem that our lect willing to solve her problem) and i started to had a negative thinking bout her n her partner. in the same time, i still can go out with them without noticing what is going to happen ahead.
one day, she had enuff bout my bias attitude where i listen to one side only which is our lect, she had a really big anger to me, i wud like to confront with her before, but i dun have the guts to do so. i may took a little tyme to saying ape yg aku x puas hati, tp before aku confront dgn die, die da serang aku dulu....i cant do anything for i just listened what she want to brag me....then solution nye aku apologise for what ive been thinking so long. aku ni amat pethetic becoz my bad habit (yg baru aku kenal....) is to listen at one side only...that is the immature part of me...after that kami berkawan seperti biase..sampai final exam, kami membuat perangai study masing2... so i dun even care la sbb style die blaja pon kekadang pressures me up...sbb aku ni kan x bape pandai sgt mcm die...but aku x kesah janji mase tu aku study sudeh....
one day, one of her clique (if i can say she is her clique..) sleepover for two nites in a row...she suddenly said she wants to study with her friend which is staying in another block, so aku x bape kesah sgt..her clique ni die mcm x lyn sgt, so aku la yg terpakse lyn die, tido dgn die la n blablabla....kadang2 aku x fhm situasi kwn2 die nih mcm mane...mcm aku ni aku mmg jenis xleyh kawan rapat dgn ramai2 org, nnti aku jd biol sbb nk lyn kerenah org bnyk sgt...tp die mmg bleh kwn ngn sesape jeks but her clique tu yg aku x bape nk phm sgt...apepun after this aku da mls nk amik taw psl sape kwn2 rapat die..i dun give a damn...
setelah ape yg aku mencarut kat atas ni, aku da amik pengajaran dr ape yg berlaku sepanjang tempoh 6 bulan pengajianku. ape yg penting skng, i will look ahead, i dun care ape yg org nk ckp psl aku, aku xnk cite psl org dah, aku da nekad aku nk jd seseorang yg memerhati shj dlm kelas tu.....there will no student teacher relationship after this....im goin to concentrate on my final semester and my final project with my viva group....
leaving 2008 which brings alot of pain rather than sweet memories, akan aku ingt sampai bile2....kalo tade bende2 ni sume aku mungkin xkn jd matang dlm membuat keputusan....thank you Allah for what You had given me....alhamdulillah...bkn senang nk dpt dugaan mcm ni taw....moga2 year of 2009 akan memberi kekuatan, keceriaan, kebahagiaan dan keselamatan kepadaku...insyaAllah..aminn.....
and starting with the lect tell me the bad story bout her (she had a problem that our lect willing to solve her problem) and i started to had a negative thinking bout her n her partner. in the same time, i still can go out with them without noticing what is going to happen ahead.
one day, she had enuff bout my bias attitude where i listen to one side only which is our lect, she had a really big anger to me, i wud like to confront with her before, but i dun have the guts to do so. i may took a little tyme to saying ape yg aku x puas hati, tp before aku confront dgn die, die da serang aku dulu....i cant do anything for i just listened what she want to brag me....then solution nye aku apologise for what ive been thinking so long. aku ni amat pethetic becoz my bad habit (yg baru aku kenal....) is to listen at one side only...that is the immature part of me...after that kami berkawan seperti biase..sampai final exam, kami membuat perangai study masing2... so i dun even care la sbb style die blaja pon kekadang pressures me up...sbb aku ni kan x bape pandai sgt mcm die...but aku x kesah janji mase tu aku study sudeh....
one day, one of her clique (if i can say she is her clique..) sleepover for two nites in a row...she suddenly said she wants to study with her friend which is staying in another block, so aku x bape kesah sgt..her clique ni die mcm x lyn sgt, so aku la yg terpakse lyn die, tido dgn die la n blablabla....kadang2 aku x fhm situasi kwn2 die nih mcm mane...mcm aku ni aku mmg jenis xleyh kawan rapat dgn ramai2 org, nnti aku jd biol sbb nk lyn kerenah org bnyk sgt...tp die mmg bleh kwn ngn sesape jeks but her clique tu yg aku x bape nk phm sgt...apepun after this aku da mls nk amik taw psl sape kwn2 rapat die..i dun give a damn...
setelah ape yg aku mencarut kat atas ni, aku da amik pengajaran dr ape yg berlaku sepanjang tempoh 6 bulan pengajianku. ape yg penting skng, i will look ahead, i dun care ape yg org nk ckp psl aku, aku xnk cite psl org dah, aku da nekad aku nk jd seseorang yg memerhati shj dlm kelas tu.....there will no student teacher relationship after this....im goin to concentrate on my final semester and my final project with my viva group....
leaving 2008 which brings alot of pain rather than sweet memories, akan aku ingt sampai bile2....kalo tade bende2 ni sume aku mungkin xkn jd matang dlm membuat keputusan....thank you Allah for what You had given me....alhamdulillah...bkn senang nk dpt dugaan mcm ni taw....moga2 year of 2009 akan memberi kekuatan, keceriaan, kebahagiaan dan keselamatan kepadaku...insyaAllah..aminn.....
